Not good...
I took my dog with me when I walked to dad and his livein wife Anita. And we eat dinner, everything was nice and so on... But after the dinner Anita wanted to show me her new drapery in the cellar. So we walked down and my dog came after... So when we were down there cleo started to eat from a plate. I told her to stop and then Anita said something like: "omg, that's ratpoison!!!"
So I grabed the telephone and calld the vet, they told me to get in immediately to get her bring up the poison. So me and my dad went in to the animalhospital (?) and there woff get some food and a needle of something she started to vomit extreamly of... So she vomit for maybe 20 minutes and after that she rest for a while. After that the vet come in and gave her carbon in a needle in her mounth, woff didn't like that, and after that she got another needle in her skin. Then we get four pills with us home and a recept on medicin I'm going to get out from the drugstore. When I get to the drugstore they didn't have the meds. But I will get them from the vet tomorow when me, dad and woff goes to the vet again for a check.
And I hope so much everything goes right, today she is like normal. So if everything go right, she will be healthy again :)
If not... Her inside is going to erode and the blood stops coagulate and she bleed to death on the inside...
Practice and dogs






She looked so fucking scary at the black and white pictures when they had collor because her eyes always gets a demonlook. So I made them black and white, so she look a little bit cuter!
So I write myself up, with reality;fact:
I have wanted this "new" dog for a while, maybe 1½ year but now when I got the possibility to get one, I'm not shore I want one... (?) vierd? I don't know... I realy have my little cute dog and I will try to have her here in my apartment for a while. Last time I had her here my neighbour complain about her barking... So I becaume afraid for beeing kicked out from my home so my mom took my dog to her house there she can bark without someone complain... So when that happened (maybe 4 monthes ago) I decide to buy me a new dog, a grand danios who I want for a while. So I have everything clear, borner and a little bit of stuff to the dog. I will get the puppy in maybe june then. But now, when I have all this figure out I'm not sure I want her, because I have my little cutie and I don't think I can be her without here now when I have sniff all this up.
So me and mom talked and we are going to book privatelessions to my dog for teaching her not to bark, once for all. So let's se whats happening. I have my hamster and my 6 or 7 millipedes too. I love them all, in different ways.
Because:
My hamster is so freaking awsome because she is the one who sounds when I go too sleep, and I realy love when she sound that much. Her little gnawing on her food and running in her wheel (the wheel is broken now, I'm gonna buy a new one pretty fast, but the lastest time she have not run at all, she has become lazy.)

My millipedes is cool because:
They are freaky! And they give me nightmares, but they have give me pretty much cool stuff too and I hope they have a good life and becomes old and big... wiho!

My dog is true because:
She's a fucking dog! Ofcorse I love it? I feel love for cleo, my new dog is more like a project late, I have nothing to love yet. But if I had her, I absolutly will have love her too, but I can't shit my own "today" dog...
So well, that's my animals for now, on the summer I'm use to have alot of flies too, but they are only irritating and I kill them all!!
bye
Ok well: Cruise
I'v been on this cruise, it was fun like hell, here you have some pictures (click on the picture for a bigger size):
I have no pictures when my friends was playing (there band Vapenlicens) But it was great like hell, maybe 20 band who was playing on this cruise! And I think Vapenlicens was the greatest band on the boat and I think more than me thought that, it was fun :)
tihit, well on Saturday me and my dad is going in to the city to buy me a christmaspresent, a jacket, something like this:
I love this furry ones... I have kinda two more already but I want a short one too, for after the winter or so! They are kinda expensive but I will get one for christmas and I love it! Maybe I will got something more if I'm a kind one?
Well, stop stuffing that now, hehe on my practice the power in the house is all gone, It's kinda normal to be only 17+C on the days, and that freezy like hell but today it was only 13+C inside. It was cold as hell, so tomorow I'm going to have much more clothes on! hihi
4 monthes
So well, in these four monthes I have been all up on the sun, down in the water and under the dirt and mudd. I have believed I have many lifes in the same time and that I only was living on the earth (terra in latin) because I have a bigger half of my soul here on earth, and I was so fucking glad of beeing on this planet, after all. All the things I was explaine myself under this four monthes is impossible to explaine in words, I have give it a big try to tess, and a little to malin. But Tess is my big angel! (In the same time she is a demon) But of the deal, tess is my past stepsister and I love her so much, she is a real good friend (all my friends is realy good friends but tess is nearest me I think) She realy has the power to sit hour after hour and listening to all my fucking bullshit, but I have the possibillity to freak out peoples minds if they realy are listening to what I am talking about, so latest time I was with tess I told her something like this: "I am so sorry if all my stuff make you vierd, but if I was you, I have thought it is simply enought to only hear these things from another person and not believe in it in 100%. And that it is enouth to hear this from another person and not hear this delusions and experience all this stuff in your own life" Tess told me that it was something like that she was thinking to, and that realy saved a little bit of my mind. Because if people nearly can't listening to it, where in the whole space will a person live through all this all by her/himself? I don't think so... But who knowes, maybe my thoughts realy goes out from my brain and into other brains (subconsciously, I think now) and other people start to believe and think about it to. Maybe not. But I like the possibillity that it Maybe maybe can reatch someone elses brains. In fact, we are living in the space.
This was a realy good video I was found. look it up here. In this video the person has two voices and a little bit of hallucinations and so on. But me, yeah realy, I hear every person around me, and I hear every single guy from Slipknot, but it have been kinda, hmm, allday now, but as simple as always it's realy confusing and scary. But I'm kinda lucky, the voices realy often are away when I meet other people, so in that way I sound kinda normal :)
thank god for bears
So whatever, on Thursday it's cruise Galaxy and my friend's band is going to play there, it will be fun, then we go to Finland and back, but I'm pretty shore I'm going to sleep all time when we are in Finland, and get alot of beer on the cruise... It will be fun! Me Julia, Emil and Julia's friend is going... disastercruise...
Julia and Emil has this love for polices and drunktanks so... Well let's se what's happening, me the other way is just fucked up but I'm always the lucky one who get out from every problem, joke now = problem later.
Again...
Me and my friends Kenta, Julia, Emil and Viktor has been upp in Dalarna here in sweden over the holiday.
We sleep in a tent (in november -10 outside or something like that) but we had a fire inside a stove in the tent, it was a big tent! from the millitary! But me and viktor was sick and I had not sleep all night so we could not fix the fire and Julia was just sleeping (when she is sleeping, she is sleeping) so Kenta and Emil was going to fix the fire whole night and in the middle of the night emil start to drum on the stove and sing about analsex (like he always do) so everybody woke up! (not Julia) But I think he was a little bit lonly... So kenta and he sat up all night and pass the fire... But in the morning like 06.00 or something (I didn't sleep a shit) I told them both to get in bed or we will get so fucking tierd in the day. So everyone sleep, and when the clock was about 07.30 it was so fucking cold in the tent that I just get damp and set up and woke them all upp (who all was awake but lay down and freezed and tried to sleep) so we went up and get in the house and eat breakfast. And after that we agree with not sleeping in the tent one more night. So the night after we sleep in the relaxroom. We went sauna and bath in the sea, and bath in the bathtub who we had sat on fire on the outside for hot water inside, like a jacuzzi or something, without bubbles!
Yeah it was fun, and everybody get home whole, and I am more healthy now, after sauna and bath in the sea and the bathtub! But that is that kind of stop you NOT shall do when you are sick, but I'm more healthy so fuck that.
BYE!
I'm lucky... Lot of words I know
I'm pretty shore Corey have my blogg adress right now. Because I have this extreamly luck every time I go to a stone sour or slipknot concert!
I was walking around before the both bands had start playing and whopps there James stand, like a angel! Like he had heard me so much time in his subconscious like I have told you all before. James is my big favorite and there he stand. So I walked to him talked a bit, i'm not shore he understanded everything, but it was good. And like me (always) have this Corey in my mind I had write a letter to him. And put it in a postcard namned Corey Taylor. I gave the card to James and asked him if he could give it to Corey. I absolutly HATE asking people to do things for me, but what was the alternative? I say to James he absolutly can read it too! I had write down my blogg adress in the letter, and I hope of all of my heart that someone, corey maybe, look it up on the internet and find this. I'm so freaking lucky...
Well, so after that I thought "thats enough for me but I need to try to get in backstage to so I can tell (specially) Corey and James more about my situation." Because I think, the only way to get healthy again is to talk to those people, but it's kinda hard way working.
All the people who was working there was so kind to me and they helped me to get contact with the band and ask them if they knew someone teresa (like I write on the note) or maybe my real name (Therese) which name James didn't conect to.
I told James that I have heard all the people in slipknot inside my head in 5 years. Which is true, or 1615 days to be correct. IF corey or someone else in the band will read this I will make clear that when I started to hear Corey's voice I was not a big fan like "OMFG COREY TAYLOR!!" I was more like " I know the singer of slipknot and Stone Sour's name is Corey Taylor" And then I started to hear him when I walked to see stone sour on hultsfredsfestivalen 2006 I didn't knew who or witch people who was in the band, how they look or sounded like. But now I know...
STONE SOUR!

I hope it will get fun, and I'm healthy now!!! Took me a week, not smart to party all friday and stay up all night saterday - sunday! When you already is sick, then you get very sick, and will stay home almost the hole week. I hope the people on my practice dont hate me now... I realy like to be there and I will hate myself all life for not beeing there... But who want's a sick terra? noone...
look terrorindead up, new photos maybe...
BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sick fuck!
omg you'r so lonly.

stone sour tomorow, get healthy now you sick fuck!
Well
Well it feels like... hmmm
Like I write before, like I'm use to change shall but I'm not a woodlouse anymore so it's inpossible. So instead I get sick... Well why not? I have no good idea why a human get's sick. And my hamster told me that everything is alright with the cage and she tell me when it is the day to get it clean. Because she told me "WTF?! how do you think this kinda stuff works, realy, ofcorse we animals/pets tell our people around us when we need to get out or when we like the cage to get clean" And I say "yeah ofcorse Brandy, that's an idea"...
And Kenta told me "shit? can the hamster get your sickness when you'r sick!?" and I told him "yeah I thought about that when I was small to (like around 5-10 years), but no the hamster will not get sick because I am sick"...
Little little Brandy goes all by herself...
BUT! It's "kennelhosta" = [birthsickness] at the dogplace I am working at, and can I have become sick because of the dogs? I dont know!
Thank for comments!
I'm sick and have not been that since 2007 and now it's stone sour in 3 days and in a week I wi¨ll go up to dalarna with my friends! SO BECAME EARLY NICE NOW BODY!
I got one new idea, think if the woodlouse only feel pain when they got a new body? because they grow out of their own body some times time to time.. They get "sic" when they grow out of there bodys, but only for somedays and after that everything is alraight again... pretty simply....
wakeup!
I know, alot of people think they are disgusting! Me to, But not... I have this dream about them again:
My millipedes had grow up and there poison was very dangerous to people. So when I had them on my arm the poison did so it started to grow up all the millipedes bones on my arm. It was kinda crazy...

ok?
Whatever, I will play with explorer untill the problem is fixed with firefox... I don't know why, maybe it's slower than explorer but I don't see the different... Whatever, the new design will be up soon, I have emailed blogg.se about the problem, yeah I know I'm a retard... They can not fix the firefowproblem but maybe they know if the design take different time to show in firefox...?
Who knowes... Today I was in Stockholm City and buyed plugs to my ears in 21mm = 0.82 inches... Yeah I have that in my ears. I buyed a couple of these: http://www.barbarella.se/Public/Store/showProduct?id=14584&from=555 in 22mm = 0.86 inches... I love them, and I get them through my 20mm = 0.78 inches hole in my ear. HAPPY!
Whatevere, the stor get me to find these to: http://www.barbarella.se/Public/Store/showProduct?id=14577&from=555 freaking awsome, so I buyed them too. But when the order get through they email me and say the earplug was out of there sortiment, so I am sopose to sit here and wait 7-10 days until they get in the plug, and after that 2-4 days for me to get them... But's then all is alright because I am going to get my more money then... Because Now I buyed these for the money instead: A pair of woodplugs or something with spirals in... Think they were cool. 21mm. They looked a bit like the millipedes when they are in a circle. So I buyed two "paul" and "Gray". Like my millipedes. And when I got home a saw it was three. On one plug there were a spiral on both sides so we got "slipknot" too. "2" is dead.
But I bought 4 new ones and the borner of the millepedes stucked a fifth together with the four I bought. But it was only four when I got them, one was dead and the other ones has eat of it. So simply, 4.
OOOOH
Sooooooo, I get this briliant idea a couple of days ago when I was in Dalarna. I have always wanted to take my friends with me up to Dalarna but I know they will shit down the place if they get up there, and with no alcohol (my father says) they are not going up with me I thought... So my father said:
" The only point they get up here is if I give them beer, so much beer I wanna give them, and if they sleep in the 20 man's tent and get alot of woodstuff and do alot of fire, and they can use the hot bathtube and do the sauna."
And I got the superidea!! It's just that kinda stuf my friends LOVE to do... So well, I asked them, and they were all up to it. It become more like a curing days without alcohol with my firends, we always drink so fucking much, never is togeteher without alcohol and beer. But Now we gonna do alot of WoodStuff and have alot of time togeteher...
Fun.
I am so Good.
New "job"
But I think I will survive ;)
New design...
I have a hard time in Dalarna where I put up new designs for maybe 20 of my blogs, so the designs is going on well... But this one is hard because I fucked it up so hard when I was on the hospital... But I'm gonna fix it... It is possible to write comments now under "kommentarer" under every writing. I'm going to take it back to english soon when I get my powers back...
So go ahead and write comments if you want to.
// Terra
Play dead

Today we are going to visit the dead!
MY father buyed me a book ( I was shattering) about puppys :D tihit! i'M SO HAPPY. I'm going to read it all tomorow when I go by train home to stockholm again... And on Monday my practicjob is starting! :D:D
I am going to job on a place where there are over 80 dogs! People dump there dogs there at the morning and get them home again on the afternon/evening... like children :D I'm so freaking happy for this, because I LOVE dogs and i LOVE to be outside walking with them!
But I feel like shit, but thats's a different point, I think it can be for my red period... hehe... But those things has not happening when I have my peridods sence I was 15 years old. When I was 15 years old I alwaysed feeld like shit when I had my period and before the period. I hope this not happening again, because it's irritating!
Dalarna
so freaking awesome! Small voices here! Not that much than in Stockholm. just chill out with stesolid lergigan and atarax... And the other meds...
feels like a big fat hollyday! ... KNOW...

BYE
ok shoes

find old pictures

That one in the sea...
*MORR MORR*