terrorin

Ok, well I have my practic at this place with dogs, they have over 80 dogs there, it's so fantastic! (I told you over 40 last time but thats wrong, that's only for one floor, there are 40+ dogs on every floor :D) I like all the dogs and all the persons  who works there are realy kind! I don't know the dogs but they are cute... Well I have my own dog too and I'm this freak who has hard to understand that I have this little animal, but I got her for some years ago, but I can't believe it so... Well I don't speak about my dog much but that's only for her security HAHA. She's my first dog, I have always want a dog, my whole life I have wanted a dog, as long I can remember I have nag about it. And then my family's friends had two, but my Woff had bite there son in his hand when she was three. So they wanted to kill her =/... So we took her, and I remember how fucking happy I was and am. Well I took some picture of my little lady, so here you go:



She looked so fucking scary at the black and white pictures when they had collor because her eyes always gets a demonlook. So I made them black and white, so she look a little bit cuter!

So I write myself up, with reality;fact:
I have wanted this "new" dog for a while, maybe 1½ year but now when I got the possibility to get one, I'm not shore I want one... (?) vierd? I don't know... I realy have my little cute dog and I will try to have her here in my apartment for a while. Last time I had her here my neighbour complain about her barking... So I becaume afraid for beeing kicked out from my home so my mom took my dog to her house there she can bark without someone complain... So when that happened (maybe 4 monthes ago) I decide to buy me a new dog, a grand danios who I want for a while. So I have everything clear, borner and a little bit of stuff to the dog. I will get the puppy in maybe june then. But now, when I have all this figure out I'm not sure I want her, because I have my little cutie and I don't think I can be her without here now when I have sniff all this up.
So me and mom talked and we are going to book privatelessions to my dog for teaching her not to bark, once for all. So let's se whats happening. I have my hamster and my 6 or 7 millipedes too. I love them all, in different ways.

Because:
My hamster is so freaking awsome because she is the one who sounds when I go too sleep, and I realy love when she sound that much. Her little gnawing on her food and running in her wheel (the wheel is broken now, I'm gonna buy a new one pretty fast, but the lastest time she have not run at all, she has become lazy.)
My millipedes is cool because:
They are freaky! And they give me nightmares, but they have give me pretty much cool stuff too and I hope they have a good life and becomes old and big... wiho!

My dog is true because:
She's a fucking dog! Ofcorse I love it? I feel love for cleo, my new dog is more like a project late, I have nothing to love yet. But if I had her, I absolutly will have love her too, but I can't shit my own "today" dog...


So well, that's my animals for now, on the summer I'm use to have alot of flies too, but they are only irritating and I kill them all!!

bye

In four monthes I have walked around and been all on the linepsychotic, in four monthes I was walked around and thoughed I was teleporting with other people, for a more "video" explain of this kind of things, look up http://terrorin.blogg.se/invisible there is no access on that one. Or look it up here.I know my english is bad. But the night after Stone Sour 2010 I have no time at all for sleeping, I tried, in maybe five hours but no sucess... So I started to do that video for explaine more about what I have feld under these four monthes. I know it's bad and I look like shit, but every person have there bad days, right?

So well, in these four monthes I have been all up on the sun, down in the water and under the dirt and mudd. I have believed I have many lifes in the same time and that I only was living on the earth (terra in latin) because I have a bigger half of my soul here on earth, and I was so fucking glad of beeing on this planet, after all. All the things I was explaine myself under this four monthes is impossible to explaine in words, I have give it a big try to tess, and a little to malin. But Tess is my big angel! (In the same time she is a demon) But of the deal, tess is my past stepsister and I love her so much, she is a real good friend (all my friends is realy good friends but tess is nearest me I think) She realy has the power to sit hour after hour and listening to all my fucking bullshit, but I have the possibillity to freak out peoples minds if they realy are listening to what I am talking about, so latest time I was with tess I told her something like this: "I am so sorry if all my stuff make you vierd, but if I was you, I have thought it is simply enought to only hear these things from another person and not believe in it in 100%. And that it is enouth to hear this from another person and not hear this delusions and experience all this stuff in your own life" Tess told me that it was something like that she was thinking to, and that realy saved a little bit of my mind. Because if people nearly can't listening to it, where in the whole space will a person live through all this all by her/himself? I don't think so... But who knowes, maybe my thoughts realy goes out from my brain and into other brains (subconsciously, I think now) and other people start to believe and think about it to. Maybe not. But I like the possibillity that it Maybe maybe can reatch someone elses brains. In fact, we are living in the space.

 

This was a realy good video I was found. look it up here. In this video the person has two voices and a little bit of hallucinations and so on. But me, yeah realy, I hear every person around me, and I hear every single guy from Slipknot, but it have been kinda, hmm, allday now, but as simple as always it's realy confusing and scary. But I'm kinda lucky, the voices realy often are away when I meet other people, so in that way I sound kinda normal :)

Thank God for bears, I'm sure Viktor was a little bit afraid of bears when we was sleeping inside that monster. Julias Camera take good pictures, she has one of that big ones you know... It is wolfes in Dalarna to, but we survived, me and Viktor was sick as hell AND we both bath the day after and as long as I know we are both healthier now... In Sweden bath sauna meens = you'r dead if you bath sauna if you'r sick. But in Finland (Julia is a finland... know) you get healthy of bath sauna when you'r sick, so I have 100% for finland when I was sick and bath all evening!
So whatever, on Thursday it's cruise Galaxy and my friend's band is going to play there, it will be fun, then we go to Finland and back, but I'm pretty shore I'm going to sleep all time when we are in Finland, and get alot of beer on the cruise... It will be fun! Me Julia, Emil and Julia's friend is going... disastercruise...

Julia and Emil has this love for polices and drunktanks so... Well let's se what's happening, me the other way is just fucked up but I'm always the lucky one who get out from every problem, joke now = problem later.

Well I'm so sorry if everybody hate me right now... and my fucked up stuff, but this kind of things is the stuff I need to deal with every fucking day! It's kinda irritating...

Me and my friends Kenta, Julia, Emil and Viktor has been upp in Dalarna here in sweden over the holiday.
We sleep in a tent (in november -10 outside or something like that) but we had a fire inside a stove in the tent, it was a big tent! from the millitary! But me and viktor was sick and I had not sleep all night so we could not fix the fire and Julia was just sleeping (when she is sleeping, she is sleeping) so Kenta and Emil was going to fix the fire whole night and in the middle of the night emil start to drum on the stove and sing about analsex (like he always do) so everybody woke up! (not Julia) But I think he was a little bit lonly... So kenta and he sat up all night and pass the fire... But in the morning like 06.00 or something (I didn't sleep a shit) I told them both to get in bed or we will get so fucking tierd in the day. So everyone sleep, and when the clock was about 07.30 it was so fucking cold in the tent that I just get damp and set up and woke them all upp (who all was awake but lay down and freezed and tried to sleep) so we went up and get in the house and eat breakfast. And after that we agree with not sleeping in the tent one more night. So the night after we sleep in the relaxroom. We went sauna and bath in the sea, and bath in the bathtub who we had sat on fire on the outside for hot water inside, like a jacuzzi or something, without bubbles!

Yeah it was fun, and everybody get home whole, and I am more healthy now, after sauna and bath in the sea and the bathtub! But that is that kind of stop you NOT shall do when you are sick, but I'm more healthy so fuck that.

BYE!

Getting your attention!!!
So for a more great welcome, read the insert before!
I have this brilliant idea about Paul Grey, I'm so fucking sorry that he is gone. But I'm not realy sure he is all gone...

BECAUSE: (the explanation)
I have talked with the slipknot guys in almost 5 years (including Craig, he talkes alot) So what is the more completed translation of birth than Paul birth here with me?
It took me alot of powers to get him, mental power. Because I am afraid of this animals...
And what is more obvious than paul get birth inside a "maggot" A maggot had been ok but then he came with this extreamly pain... He is a centipede!

BECAUSE:
Paul didn't stop talking when he was dead, no, the other way, he talked more. He said he had fooled himself to do what he did to die... And that he in that way was reborn as the most mentaly angry animal you can find.
So I starting have this "nightmares" about him, that he was a BIG FUCKING CENTIPEDE!! A big black maybe 20 cm tall (7,87 inches) and that is one of my biggest fears!

BECAUSE:
I have this big respect for kreepy crawling things...

BUT:
Brave as I am I look it up. I started to post posts on maybe two forums, And I get one on the line! The only fucking borner of Mardonius Parilis Acuticonus in Sweden and she simply just in this point have babys on this one!!!

COOL, BECAUSE:
It's kinda cool, it's kinda "hello! Hello! I'm alive! I'm alive! I'm Paul, buy me! Buy me!" So I send a message to her and say I wanted to buy one, and I was seriously when (my mom thought I had became MORE crazy) to get on a bus and go down to Malmö (miles after miles after miles away) to get the little fucker!

BUT:
But the borner (Mikaela) answered and say she will post them so they can transport it to me, and I say "ok"...

THE FACT:
So when I was going to buy Paul I buyed 3 more. (Like the strings of a bass.) If someone will die on the way here to my home. I got this aquarium with 6 sides and a mirror in, so paul feel like home, sixes and a mirror, he will se himself. So I got this 4 little maggots and I was so fucking afraid of them! Those litte being! But I promise you, they are fucking dangerous! [explain later]

IN THA AQUARIUM:
Welll I got them, I put them all (miles away from them with my hands) in the aquarium. Three of them simply run under something and dissepeard. But the fourth did take a explore around the aquarium. Look at the picture:

This one I simply named "Paul", He was not like the other ones, he took a explorer trip around the aquarium and after that he place himself eating on a big leaf. So I smiled, And walk from him. When I got back he had fucking lay himself as a S like [Slipknot]!!
Isn't that incredible!?

AND:
So I named him Paul, and say to myself "the first one I see every time will be Paul". I named his brothers to Grey (like his surname, and because they are going to be grey and alot of black big fuckers when they grow up), the other brother to Slipknot (who I thought had a splitterd mind) and the one I thoughed was a girl I named 2 (two).

THIS IS PAUL:


He's gonna grow up and be a black sick fucking 8 inches long angry maggot to millipede! After this life, me and Paul come up with he wanna be a little pig. So I will buy him then too, A minipig! But these millipedes is from Conco's rainforest and can live up to 10 years and be like 7-8 inces (20-25 cm). Paul has it great, eating all the time, got alot of water, have his family, and a big fucking mirror he can look i all the time, so he don't forget how incredible mentaly sic he is.

FACT:

• Millipedes like paul (Mardonius Parilis Acuticonus) can be up to 20-25 cm + (7-9 inches +).

• Millipedes like paul born white but become black after a year or 10 cm (4 inchec).

• Millipedes like paul can live up to 10 years.

• Millipedes like paul is the next biggest type, the biggerst is cald african black or something like that.

• Millipedes like paul is poisonous, they poison get you cancer after frequent contact.

• Millipedes like paul like to live in a group.

• Millipedes like paul is kinda hard to get, I don't know how many different types of millipedes there are, but I'm kinda sure over 1000...

This is paul when he get bigger:
I'm kinda sure that is his parents, the small one is the boy...



This is paul now:
I'm kinda sure that's paul's brothers and sisters...



I am afraid of them of all my heart, they have given me nightmares a few times... But I love them in this vierd way... Better than nothing or ar you not just satisfied with this?

Hope you believe me because I am 99% sure.

AFTERPOINT:

1. Just in this exactly moment I find out "What the hell? In the video dead memories - Slipknot, Paul is around mirrors... humm, vierd... like always...

1. Just for exactly some weeks ago AFTER me and paul agreed with he was going to be a pig, I realised one of his masks look like a pig... Crazy, like always...

1. Cancer and people living together... Mardonius parilis acuticonus poision is carcinogenic and people, yeah you get the point.

THE END

If you want to read more about Paul and his sisters and brothers you can look here:
Mardonius Parilis Acuticonus

well hallo there!
I'm pretty shore Corey have my blogg adress right now. Because I have this extreamly luck every time I go to a stone sour or slipknot concert!
I was walking around before the both bands had start playing and whopps there James stand, like a angel! Like he had heard me so much time in his subconscious like I have told you all before. James is my big favorite and there he stand. So I walked to him talked a bit, i'm not shore he understanded everything, but it was good. And like me (always) have this Corey in my mind I had write a letter to him. And put it in a postcard namned Corey Taylor. I gave the card to James and asked him if he could give it to Corey. I absolutly HATE asking people to do things for me, but what was the alternative? I say to James he absolutly can read it too! I had write down my blogg adress in the letter, and I hope of all of my heart that someone, corey maybe, look it up on the internet and find this. I'm so freaking lucky...

Well, so after that I thought "thats enough for me but I need to try to get in backstage to so I can tell (specially) Corey and James more about my situation." Because I think, the only way to get healthy again is to talk to those people, but it's kinda hard way working.

All the people who was working there was so kind to me and they helped me to get contact with the band and ask them if they knew someone teresa (like I write on the note) or maybe my real name (Therese) which name James didn't conect to.

I told James that I have heard all the people in slipknot inside my head in 5 years. Which is true, or 1615 days to be correct. IF corey or someone else in the band will read this I will make clear that when I started to hear Corey's voice I was not a big fan like "OMFG COREY TAYLOR!!" I was more like " I know the singer of slipknot and Stone Sour's name is Corey Taylor" And then I started to hear him when I walked to see stone sour on hultsfredsfestivalen 2006 I didn't knew who or witch people who was in the band, how they look or sounded like. But now I know...

ok, well, it's stone sour time... I'm gonna be there 19.30 when they start, but it's another band namned hellyeah I don't know... One fucked up thing already, my internet's name is hellsyeah and that was years before I knew stone sour should have a band before them who's named hellyeah... But whatever noone find that interesting anyway. Let's see whats happening, I will meet Tobbe and his friend there before the show. funni...

I hope it will get fun, and I'm healthy now!!! Took me a week, not smart to party all friday and stay up all night saterday - sunday! When you already is sick, then you get very sick, and will stay home almost the hole week. I hope the people on my practice dont hate me now... I realy like to be there and I will hate myself all life for not beeing there... But who want's a sick terra? noone...
look terrorindead up, new photos maybe...

BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sick
omg you'r so lonly.



stone sour tomorow, get healthy now you sick fuck!

I'm sick and I need to fix my hamster Brandy's cage! But I will do that tomorow, so she not get angry at me!
Well it feels like... hmmm

Like I write before, like I'm use to change shall but I'm not a woodlouse anymore so it's inpossible. So instead I get sick... Well why not? I have no good idea why a human get's sick. And my hamster told me that everything is alright with the cage and she tell me when it is the day to get it clean. Because she told me "WTF?! how do you think this kinda stuff works, realy, ofcorse we animals/pets tell our people around us when we need to get out or when we like the cage to get clean" And I say "yeah ofcorse Brandy, that's an idea"...

And Kenta told me "shit? can the hamster get your sickness when you'r sick!?" and I told him "yeah I thought about that when I was small to (like around 5-10 years), but no the hamster will not get sick because I am sick"...
Little little Brandy goes all by herself...

BUT! It's "kennelhosta" = [birthsickness] at the dogplace I am working at, and can I have become sick because of the dogs? I dont know!

haha no realy I'm a sick fuck! Like my armes and my whole body is going in pain and it's all shaking or something so I nearly can't write ont he board...
I'm sick and have not been that since 2007 and now it's stone sour in 3 days and in a week I wi¨ll go up to dalarna with my friends! SO BECAME EARLY NICE NOW BODY!

I got one new idea, think if the woodlouse only feel pain when they got a new body? because they grow out of their own body some times time to time.. They get "sic" when they grow out of there bodys, but only for somedays and after that everything is alraight again... pretty simply....

So I have write some down here: http://terrorin.blogg.se/mardoniusparilisacuticonus
I know, alot of people think they are disgusting! Me to, But not... I have this dream about them again:

My millipedes had grow up and there poison was very dangerous to people. So when I had them on my arm the poison did so it started to grow up all the millipedes bones on my arm. It was kinda crazy...

ok? Let's pray. My new design don't work in my firefox but it works in explorer, vierd...
Whatever, I will play with explorer untill the problem is fixed with firefox... I don't know why, maybe it's slower than explorer but I don't see the different... Whatever, the new design will be up soon, I have emailed blogg.se about the problem, yeah I know I'm a retard... They can not fix the firefowproblem but maybe they know if the design take different time to show in firefox...?
Who knowes... Today I was in Stockholm City and buyed plugs to my ears in 21mm = 0.82 inches... Yeah I have that in my ears. I buyed a couple of these: http://www.barbarella.se/Public/Store/showProduct?id=14584&from=555 in 22mm = 0.86 inches... I love them, and I get them through my 20mm = 0.78 inches hole in my ear. HAPPY!

Whatevere, the stor get me to find these to: http://www.barbarella.se/Public/Store/showProduct?id=14577&from=555 freaking awsome, so I buyed them too. But when the order get through they email me and say the earplug was out of there sortiment, so I am sopose to sit here and wait 7-10 days until they get in the plug, and after that 2-4 days for me to get them... But's then all is alright because I am going to get my more money then... Because Now I buyed these for the money instead: A pair of woodplugs or something with spirals in... Think they were cool. 21mm. They looked a bit like the millipedes when they are in a circle. So I buyed two "paul" and "Gray". Like my millipedes. And when I got home a saw it was three. On one plug there were a spiral on both sides so we got "slipknot" too. "2" is dead.

But I bought 4 new ones and the borner of the millepedes stucked a fifth together with the four I bought. But it was only four when I got them, one was dead and the other ones has eat of it. So simply, 4.

OOOOH
Sooooooo, I get this briliant idea a couple of days ago when I was in Dalarna. I have always wanted to take my friends with me up to Dalarna but I know they will shit down the place if they get up there, and with no alcohol (my father says) they are not going up with me I thought... So my father said:
" The only point they get up here is if I give them beer, so much beer I wanna give them, and if they sleep in the 20 man's tent and get alot of woodstuff and do alot of fire, and they can use the hot bathtube and do the sauna."

And I got the superidea!! It's just that kinda stuf my friends LOVE to do... So well, I asked them, and they were all up to it. It become more like a curing days without alcohol with my firends, we always drink so fucking much, never is togeteher without alcohol and beer. But Now we gonna do alot of WoodStuff and have alot of time togeteher...
Fun.
I am so Good.

I have practicaldays (?) where I get the chans that in 6 weeks job on a place I wanna work on. So I get my 6 weeks at a house full of dogs! they have over 40 dogs. The owners to the dogs leave them there at the morning and take them back home again on the afternoon... It's fun! Today is my second day and I have only sleept 4 hours -.-
But I think I will survive ;)

So, I try this design for a while, I know, little hard to see the picture but thats the point... It's a blog to read, not to look. For look visit: http://terrorin.blogg.se/terrorindead
I have a hard time in Dalarna where I put up new designs for maybe 20 of my blogs, so the designs is going on well... But this one is hard because I fucked it up so hard when I was on the hospital... But I'm gonna fix it... It is possible to write comments now under "kommentarer" under every writing. I'm going to take it back to english soon when I get my powers back...
So go ahead and write comments if you want to.

// Terra

If we where different?
A woodlouse from the land and a woodlouse from the wather.... What becomes the different? Can the different have been our collours on our bodys? The one on land is white the ones from the wather is the black?
Is that a normal question? I don't know, but kinda interesting!

I think the woodlouse was the first living thing at earth, in water and on land. here you have some of them on land:
Click on the pictures if you dare and if you want a better view... But if we, like humans, was woodlouses from the beginning? Then we in the same way look like them? Listening...:
Our arms = There big long tal things on there head (don't know the english word)
All our ribs = there legs
Our legs = There's tails
Our backbone on our back = There shell
Eyes = Look into picture 4, look into those eyes, dots... Like you have a houndread eyes.

And lets face it, the one's in water:



All the same but a different kind of woodlouse, (I never swim again), Those ones can be over one meter (39.37 inches) That's a big fucking ugly angry little shit down there in the deep blue sea...


But where is it most hard to live? In the water or on land?
I think land, and therefore, I am...

Oh I'm insane... Fun.

I have made a tatto to, it look's like this:



And it is symbolicing this ( I translate from swedish to english on this one):

ok many wondering what tattoo mean / mean and I will try to explain it a little fast ... I would also like to highlight that this is something I painted in 2009 and is an image that for me then was completely rejected in spite of this, I kept on:

The time while it is common, a digital clock (made of stretch) that if you add hop, for example, the Court 12 (IIIIIIIIIIII) going to such Court 3 (III) going, it will be 15 for example ... As a digital clock.

Then, as many know, I believe in reborns and I think I died at 0600 in my former life, thus pointing at the 18, while it points to the two open areas between 12 and 6. Thus = 6:00

It is also full, quarter past, half and quarter in the red.
Because I think I was reborn of them red-marked stretch where I did not put lamps. Then I thought about my personal identity and that is: 900 422 -**** and they last four digits are roughly 1545, that is where they red distance is selected. And I am also born around 04.00 on the morning... spooky

But I think also that I will die at 18.00 in this life ...
Well we may vell see ...

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So Swedish digital time is correct; example; 13.00 = 01.00AM/PM
But in the same time it can be: 23.00 = 11.00AM/PM
over and over again
In sweden we have:

• 00.00 =[spookytime/end/begining of the day]
  

• 01.00 =[01.00 morning]
  

• 02.00

• 03.00

• 04.00

• 05.00

• 06.00

• 07.00

• 08.00

• 09.00

• 10.00

• 11.00

• 12.00

• 13.00 = [1 again]
  

• 14.00

• 15.00

• 16.00

• 17.00

• 18.00

• 19.00

• 20.00

• 21.00

• 22.00

• 23.00 =[last hour on the day, after that, 00.00]
  

One tour around the clock...
In example USA you have AM and PM witch is confusing because It can be [after midnight] and [past midnight] and then the same is the same, it's confusing... And you have example time 03.00AM/PM American time... witch is 15.00 in Swedish time on the day and 03.00AM/PM is 03.00 on the night in Sweden... You You get it?

Our system is more normal, right?, your's?!  I don't know what you where thinking when you was made your digital time...

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So There you go!

All the dead people, we are going to the grave... Me and my grandmother and grandfather was and buyed some candles to the graves. And if I'm lycky my sister is going to be here tomowor... Spaceship.

MY father buyed me a book ( I was shattering) about puppys :D tihit! i'M SO HAPPY. I'm going to read it all tomorow when I go by train home to stockholm again... And on Monday my practicjob is starting! :D:D
I am going to job on a place where there are over 80 dogs! People dump there dogs there at the morning and get them home again on the afternon/evening... like children :D I'm so freaking happy for this, because I LOVE dogs and i LOVE to be outside walking with them!

But I feel like shit, but thats's a different point, I think it can be for my red period... hehe... But those things has not happening when I have my peridods sence I was 15 years old. When I was 15 years old I alwaysed feeld like shit when I had my period and before the period. I hope this not happening again, because it's irritating!

Yeah, dalarna...
so freaking awesome! Small voices here! Not that much than in Stockholm. just chill out with stesolid lergigan and atarax... And the other meds...

feels like a big fat hollyday! ... KNOW...

yeah find out more about the picture...

BYE

The shoes I was going to buy was stoped bein producted so it will be this ones instead:

click on the picture for a bigger view

I made that one in Paint one time I was going by train to Dalarna...
That one in the sea...
*MORR MORR*

Fuck STockholm, I'm in Dalarna for  a cuple of days