Permission
I got permission from the mentalhospital from today till tomorow and I will tell you how!
The whole thing beginns like this. I was home with a friend and we started to fight and he went away from my apartment but I was to slow and angry to follow him directly, but after some minute I walk after him to find him. I went to the train to look if he was there but he wasn't and then I became angry and so on, so, Corey and Ville started to talk alot. Ville like always trying to protect me from Corey's talk. Coreys talk what is like:
"Nobody stands you" and "You are not worth the waiting" and "You never gonna be forgiven" and "you'r a freak" and so on. So when I was on my way back from the train to walk to the busstation and look a girl walk up against me and Corey hardly says: "Show her how dangerous you is!" And I had no match of winningpoint to not do what Corey was telling me right then. Everything kinda dissapeared and I hit the girl. Sad.
"Nobody stands you" and "You are not worth the waiting" and "You never gonna be forgiven" and "you'r a freak" and so on. So when I was on my way back from the train to walk to the busstation and look a girl walk up against me and Corey hardly says: "Show her how dangerous you is!" And I had no match of winningpoint to not do what Corey was telling me right then. Everything kinda dissapeared and I hit the girl. Sad.
I'm not gonna get into any closer details about that, I know it was wrong, I know it was stupid and I know I shouldn't have done it. But when you have a fucking Corey Taylor screaming in your head to nearly kill someone from his point it's kinda hard to stand up to. And like a view of that I was very angry, sad and also upset. But I know, that's not a reason to hit someone.
After that I went to the busstation but my friend wasn't there eather so I started to walk back to my apartment but on the way a policecar came by. They picked me upp and bla bla bla...
I end up on section 1 on St Görans hospital and after that I became transport to section 140 on Danderyds hospital and after that transport to section 126 on danderyds hospital here in stockholm. So well there I have been...
But to the whole point now! Why I'm so happy because of this permission. I have been into mentalhospitals longer time than this time without permissions or even not has was outside disregard the smokingarea. It has been times I have been inside for 2 monthes without been more far away from the section than 2 meters (79 inch). But this time has been so fucking irritating! It is more to come! All the other time I have been very psychotic or in the middle of two worlds but this time I have been totaly healthy according to me. The only false step this time was that I simply did what Corey told me for over 9 billion of times and this time I hit a girl. Not good at all but it is so fucking boring to be in a mentalhospital when you feeling healty and not have all this hysterical thoughs to listening and make up to. Whatever I became moved to section 126, the psychosissection on Danderyds hospital, with my own talking rights of that it was alright and that I could be there on free will. I thoughed like:
"Okey, let's be here some couple of days, something need to be wrong, I beaten up a girl last night."
So I was there on my own will but then the doctor came into the picture. I was on the section for maybe 3 days without complaint but after that I asked the doctor if I could leave the hospital but she simply said:
"That make no sence, it's totaly absurd." Then I asked the doctor if I could have a permission but she said the same and I thought "what the fuck, I can handle one day more here."
So I wait but the doctor told me the same thing over and over again but this time she even threaten me with that if I didn't do what she was telling me she should write a hospital order on me. A hospital order so she have the right to keep me there and controll me and everything around me for a month and after that maybe prolong the LPT (Law about mental custodial care). So she simply said:
"You are not going anywhere, if you want to get out or any permissions I write a hospital order on you so you will stay here. Do we have a agreement?"
I had not choise without agree with the bitch for almost a month! But today it became some changes.
The registrar came into my room and told me they was going to take away my 16.00 medicin of one Ritalin and then I totaly had got enough of these fucking doctors! So I told him angry that they hell not should take away my Ritalin and that I'm not in my world should stay there anylonger and that I wantet to write myself out and that it was unacceptable that my own doctor threathen me to stay on restraint when I was on the hospital on free will and I for the law should have my all rights to write myself out whenever I want to and not give after because a doctor threaten me through saying I most stay. The registrar said "Ok, you will be talking with the chief physician about this later"
So I wait and after a while I get my meeting with the doctors and I told them I wanted to get out and that I never on earth was going to stay there one night more, kinda upset. So the chief physician said she should think for 5 minutes and then talk me up. (Now we all know I got permission but it's kinda fun to write everything down anyway...)
So I wait and wait and wait and wait. 5 minutes for the doctor was 1 hour in reality btw. Bla bla bla, howsome she said I could leave the hospital yet but that I could get a permission from today till tomorow and if that went good another permission and if that went well I maybe gonna to be able to leave the hospital in next week.
That's my "now-time" story to tell.
Bye
Back to the MH
Here, back on the mentalhospital again. I can't get out from here and I realy want to get home, I will tell you all about the story how I get here when I get home. Maybe, it is a kinda idiotic story from my side. I hope to get home in a week or two, but I have already thought that for over 3 weeks now. And I'm fat again. I can't believe it, 7 kg on 3 weeks. I don't know how I make it, but I do. I guess the problem is that I hardly not eat att all when I am at home and when I get in here I eat breakfast, lunch, coffe break, dinner, and night sandwich and maybe some more sandwich if I can't sleep, witch is almost every night. And on that I eat alot of candy because that is the only shit you can do on this place.
So there you see, not my fault, just hospitalbody.
So there you see, not my fault, just hospitalbody.
What's happening to me?
This is what is happening if you use fake nails every day for one year:
Look kinda hardcore or only like I have shut a door over my finger or something. Howsome I'm gonna be without fake nails untill my freaky green nails is gone, whatever what the fuck it is, but I have a guess about it isn't good at all.
Well
Well, I am waiting for Adam to come here and I'm very tierd! My hamster Al Qaida has her own new cage:
She's very cute but very afraid of people, but she is curious like hell! In the beginning she could not even take food from the gauls but now she is doing that gladly every day, it's in that way I feed her. I have the super feeding stuff i buyed to my gone and dead hamster Brandy before. The food was like dietfood because Brandy was so fucking fat. And the food is formed like little hearts and a hamster should have 6 little hearts every day so I give them to Al qaida through the gaul and the tameprodject goes forward. Soon I will put my hand in the cage to give her the food. Whatever.
I have started the prodject with book two, the folower to terrorin Alive 0. This one will simply be named terrorin Alive 1. But I guess it will take more than one month to write this one because the words will not get to my fingers, just through my mouth.
1 may 2011
1 may 2011. The savior of my life came true. I will always believe in you. You are my firsth, I can barely breathe; I find you fascinating; You are my favorite.
Elsa
I have translate the book from Swedish to english now. The result? You will see... Now back to the story about Elsa:
It's kinda hard to explaine because I have not write about it that much at the blog but I write about it to much in the book. About my earlier lifes, that I have been a woodlouse in all my earlier lifes and secured the univers of life. I went back now to explaine Elsa and I know I have named her before but only as the name on my laptop I guess. But Elsa is more than a name on a laptop.
Allan, you know, the guy who came up when Corey split in two, also named to my earlier computer was in the same time as Elsa, almost.
Allan came up in 2006 and Elsa came up early in 2007 when she walked in to my room when I was trying to sleep at my mom's house on a permission from the rehab home.
Elsa walked in and she was in my lenght, about 170 cm (67 inches) and she had long curly natural red hair and blue eyes. Kinda of a ginger, and she was very skinny. Not creepy skinny but less flesh than me if we say so. This was one of the times I realy feeld a hallucination and it was when Elsa fast walk to me when I was laying in my bed. When she was next to my bed she hunker down and poke me in my eye with her finger. And I realy feelt this like if it was someone very real person who was doing it. (Yes it hurt a bit). After that I became so fucking scared and Elsa leaved the room. After that I was hard of fear like a stone but after a while I started to talk to her and she was very hyperactive and talked alot, I don't remember what she said but I remember I started to be irritated on her and I remember that I get out the name Elsa from her.
So I had Elsa, Allan (Also the slaughterer, a very fat man who was so fat that all his brakes on the skin leaved place for the blood to almost get out from the skin, I don't know what he came from but I got a guess now and I will write it later if I remember. He don't have a name, I only call him "The slaughterer".)
After all this I was so fucking angry that a girl had went up in my world (She was maybe like me in age today, like 21 years old when she came up). I tried to make Elsa undone and make myself to belive that I maybe only had make a fantasy about her but it was impossible to make the thing that happend in my bedroom that night undone. So I just have tried to not talk and forget her in almost 5 years. But now we come to the pont, almost. One thing more first.
One time I was sitting here in my apartment (maybe a year ago) and I got this big fat deja vu or what the hell it was. It was not a deja vu but it is the nearest I can come. I sat here in front of my computer and I got this extreamly strong feeling about "I have survived!!" and this was a very strong feeling. I only knew that if I was sitting right where I was right then I had survived. I had played my life and cards trough life right and I had survived from suicide and all this because I went psychotic. It was the most strong feeling I have got in my whole life, can't explain it nearlier than that, just believe me on that...
Back to Elsa, so I was on my mom's summerhouse a month ago and I had hard to sleep, I have my own house up in the forest back of the bigger house where my mom sleeps. And when I lay there and had hard like hell to sleep I started to talk with the girl with antennas :
The girl with antennas also is me and I have never understand how I can talk to another me, but what the fuck I have done it anyway in a long while without realy understand how it works. But I had my old suggestion on that one to. But what the hell, when I have a hard time to sleep I sometimes talk with the antennagirl (other me).
And when we lay there in my bed talking she at some point said:
"You have had some earlier lifes..."
Me like "No hell, I have been a woodlouse for nearly 14 billion of years before this."
And then I looked at the door out from the inside in this little house and I looked out from the little square window in the door and I thought:
"If my uncle not have come and killed me right now the next time I am in the same time as now on this planet as a human, then I have survived."
"If my uncle not have come and killed me right now the next time I am in the same time as now on this planet as a human, then I have survived."
And then it hit me! I was creating exactly the same thing that I had experience in front of my computer a year earlier but this time I was creating the stuff I had experiend before. And then it hit me: "I have done this before, I have been a human before!"
The girl with antennas: "Exactly"
And I just became so confused and started to ask the girl with antennas: "Who was I, was I you?"
She said: "You is me..."
And then this though just run into my head and the person I havent thinked about in years went up and I just said to the girl with the antennas:
"I was Elsa, wasn't I?" http://terrorin.blogg.se/elsa
Elsa... We will meet again.
The book will be up: http://terrorin.blogg.se/zero in store or on internet or both, we will se. I have much things to tell and I think the easiest way is for someone to read the shit. But I will dissapoint some readers, the stuff is in Swedish... But I think maybe someday I just get it into google translate or something and add it to but the stuff will see kinda retarded out with a whole done translate from swedish to english. But better than nothing? right?
I will start my work with the translate right now because when I tried it went up in the story that you can't translate that much that a whole book at the same time, so I will take every category (instead of chapter) one in a time, and that will take some hours. Wish me good look. Be right back with the story about Elsa. Keep Elsa fresch in your mind. The girl who went into my psychotic world 2007 and poke me in my eye with her finger.
bye
I will start my work with the translate right now because when I tried it went up in the story that you can't translate that much that a whole book at the same time, so I will take every category (instead of chapter) one in a time, and that will take some hours. Wish me good look. Be right back with the story about Elsa. Keep Elsa fresch in your mind. The girl who went into my psychotic world 2007 and poke me in my eye with her finger.
bye
Last curl; move ass
I have moved my ass to the camera, I promise you to show how non curly my hair is anylonger, didn't I?
This is some kind of result:
The subject where I showed how it looked before you can find here: http://terrorin.blogg.se/2011/june/home-from-mentalhospital-again.html
Or just look at the same picture I lay up here (From the very important hair before):
I'm a woman and this is not a problem at all, I look forward to be straight hair again, kinda tierd of all this curls right now. Thank God I'm not born with them.
This is some kind of result:
The subject where I showed how it looked before you can find here: http://terrorin.blogg.se/2011/june/home-from-mentalhospital-again.html
Or just look at the same picture I lay up here (From the very important hair before):
I'm a woman and this is not a problem at all, I look forward to be straight hair again, kinda tierd of all this curls right now. Thank God I'm not born with them.
Book and retards in real fantasy
I have so far read 85 pages in my book. I write the shit in one month but to read the stuff take me longer time than to write a new one. In fact I will write a new one, when I'm done reading the first one and have make my point if I will get out the book now, in some years, when I'm dead or never.
In fact the book is a kinda selfish book and I don't know if people should be impressed, dumb, confused, angy, happy or just think I'm a complete idiot.
I vote for the last suggest.
In fact the book is a kinda selfish book and I don't know if people should be impressed, dumb, confused, angy, happy or just think I'm a complete idiot.
I vote for the last suggest.
Everything came up kinda without problem
Success
Finland
Tomorow: Finland - Helsinki with Julia to give a painting to Ville Valo. Or his dad to give it to him. Will be fun I think...
Stop talk and start to do things.
I have bought 6 pair of shoes this month btw, but to the point. I will try to write my big long fucking text here right now because I'm so damn responsible.
Remember one thing, I was here inside my apartment all the time:
I had been up to the sun with my soul and with all souls on the planet to leave the souls who will stay on the sun for almoste forevever (a longer while than you can understand) because the souls who is damned from this planet (earth) is the souls who make people dumb by creating lies about natural things and make other people believe in them. Those people is what I am calling psychic ill instead of mentally ill. The mentally ill people is alright even if they are canibals and necrophiles or something else fun. But the psychic ill only make other people dumb by being selfish and convincing and they think something like: "I'm the best, I know everything and everybody shall listening to me!". The mentally ill more thoughs like: "I do this for my own purpose because I like it and if someone don't like it they can tell me that when they get me for doing something wrong."
It's a big different between psychic ill and mentally ill you see.
The psychic ill was the people I leave on the sun and took back with me all the mentally ill and all the other "normal" people and animals (all animals had shapes like humans). On the sun you can find two living pieces and that is woodlice and millipedes. If you want to know how and when and why there can be life on the sun, please wait for my book to come out or maybe let me explain it later.
If you leave a soul from a psychic ill person or a fiew they also stay on the sun because those people think it is possible to move matter to matter in form of mental power. And that readers are wrong. You can never move matter with your mental power, than you have gone mad.
Those psychic ill persons who believes in that they can move matter to matter with there brainpower also thinks they can get back from the sun after beeing left there with there souls for them to transform the souls back to earth when they get to the sun. The problem is that the soul not is matter at all and that they think they can move there bodies that they don't believe they shall be (woodlice) back to the earth if the whole point shall be that they maybe be a mwoodlice on the sun. The problem is even if the psychic ill people get to the sun with there human soul and end up in a body of a woodlouse they will never get out of there because it's take some billion of years for them to build up a possible working soul who workes for a woodlouse and not a human. And when the person has made there human soul to work like a woodlouse they will try to move matter to matter all over again and end up to be a human soul again. And this will go over and over again just because the psychic ill people are only selfish and disturbed in a very stuped way. In a stuped way that the person who is psychic ill make a normal person sick of the thoughs in the brain just by listening to the psychic ill. Noone notice this anyway... But I do and I am going to make my stuff work here. To get away from the sun when you have been placed there is in the same possibility of make the time go back, and believe me it's impossible, if you think something else you also have gone mad.
So that was what I was up on the sun with all souls on earth to leave there untill they have showed themself that they are worth anything else. All the souls from earth was transported in a big globe who works a litte bit like a space ship for souls, but far away from the same technology. In the globe there was a big cage who I had all the psychic ill people and from the begining every fucking soul from eart in human form (even they was a animal). It took me 4 yers and 10 monthes to get through every soul on earth to see if they was psychic ill, mentally ill or "normal" or "only sick". I was in that cage to make sure nothing got wrong and that I didn't left the wrong people. The last fucking person who came out from that fucking cage was Corey Taylor. I had wait for him in 4 years and 10 monthes in there among the psychic ill who make you dumb.
I leaved the souls on the sun and we all others went back in our globe to earth. Well back on earth me, Corey and the rest of the members in Slipknot went home to my apartment for celebrate. We was sitting there and laughted at everything and talked about how much fun we should have together in our next life (just because this life is so fucked up). Then my very best friend Ville Valo (The singer from HIM) went into the room and asked if he could be with us. All the guys in Slipknot was laughing at him and I told them to shut the fuck up and let the guy be with us because he is a close friend to me. The guys from Slipknot was giggly but stoped laugh. I asked Ville if he wanted something to drink and he wanted a glas of wine.
After that me and Corey was talking about how much we loved each other (yes again, I have been in love with Corey for 4 years and 10 monthes) and how fun we should have in our next life. Then we started to talk about witch people I wanted to take with me in my next life like friends. Corey became so angry when I wanted to take my boy friends with me because he said I would cheat on him whit them. Then I said to Corey that "Ok, then I take Ville with me because he is my best friend and I will never cheat on him." Then I saw this thing in my head and Ville said to me that he wanted to talk with me. So we went into a gloset and there Ville sat in front of me and started to snap his fingers in front of my eyes under the same time he said over and over again:
"Terra! You need to wake up! You are sick! You need to wake up! Wake up! Terra! Please wake up! Corey have never done anything good for you! You are sick! I am sick! We are sick! The music I have made is for you! All this beautiful music is for you! It is I that have done music for you your whole life, not Corey! You need to wake up! You are sick! Wake up!
And then I woke up a bit from what have been a big fat psychosis for many monthes. I became so fucking scared and everything was so quiet. I went out from the closet with Ville and walked to Corey and said:
"Corey. You don't deserve me, I want Ville as my first boyfriend in my next life. You get me when you have prove you deserve me. To that day I will stay with Ville."
Corey got this sad "=I don't give a shit." look in his eyes and walked away and started to dig a hole in the dirt.
Corey is from 1 may 2011 out of my task and I will never believe in him again. Ville is the man I will spend my life living for only to know he exists. Because Corey he is a very disturbed man, he is the most psychic ill person you can find. Because Corey, Corey he was the last man out from that cage and he is now back at the sun with his soul where he belong.
That people, that is my love story and the ending of Corey Mother Fucking Taylor.
Remember one thing, I was here inside my apartment all the time:
I had been up to the sun with my soul and with all souls on the planet to leave the souls who will stay on the sun for almoste forevever (a longer while than you can understand) because the souls who is damned from this planet (earth) is the souls who make people dumb by creating lies about natural things and make other people believe in them. Those people is what I am calling psychic ill instead of mentally ill. The mentally ill people is alright even if they are canibals and necrophiles or something else fun. But the psychic ill only make other people dumb by being selfish and convincing and they think something like: "I'm the best, I know everything and everybody shall listening to me!". The mentally ill more thoughs like: "I do this for my own purpose because I like it and if someone don't like it they can tell me that when they get me for doing something wrong."
It's a big different between psychic ill and mentally ill you see.
The psychic ill was the people I leave on the sun and took back with me all the mentally ill and all the other "normal" people and animals (all animals had shapes like humans). On the sun you can find two living pieces and that is woodlice and millipedes. If you want to know how and when and why there can be life on the sun, please wait for my book to come out or maybe let me explain it later.
If you leave a soul from a psychic ill person or a fiew they also stay on the sun because those people think it is possible to move matter to matter in form of mental power. And that readers are wrong. You can never move matter with your mental power, than you have gone mad.
Those psychic ill persons who believes in that they can move matter to matter with there brainpower also thinks they can get back from the sun after beeing left there with there souls for them to transform the souls back to earth when they get to the sun. The problem is that the soul not is matter at all and that they think they can move there bodies that they don't believe they shall be (woodlice) back to the earth if the whole point shall be that they maybe be a mwoodlice on the sun. The problem is even if the psychic ill people get to the sun with there human soul and end up in a body of a woodlouse they will never get out of there because it's take some billion of years for them to build up a possible working soul who workes for a woodlouse and not a human. And when the person has made there human soul to work like a woodlouse they will try to move matter to matter all over again and end up to be a human soul again. And this will go over and over again just because the psychic ill people are only selfish and disturbed in a very stuped way. In a stuped way that the person who is psychic ill make a normal person sick of the thoughs in the brain just by listening to the psychic ill. Noone notice this anyway... But I do and I am going to make my stuff work here. To get away from the sun when you have been placed there is in the same possibility of make the time go back, and believe me it's impossible, if you think something else you also have gone mad.
So that was what I was up on the sun with all souls on earth to leave there untill they have showed themself that they are worth anything else. All the souls from earth was transported in a big globe who works a litte bit like a space ship for souls, but far away from the same technology. In the globe there was a big cage who I had all the psychic ill people and from the begining every fucking soul from eart in human form (even they was a animal). It took me 4 yers and 10 monthes to get through every soul on earth to see if they was psychic ill, mentally ill or "normal" or "only sick". I was in that cage to make sure nothing got wrong and that I didn't left the wrong people. The last fucking person who came out from that fucking cage was Corey Taylor. I had wait for him in 4 years and 10 monthes in there among the psychic ill who make you dumb.
I leaved the souls on the sun and we all others went back in our globe to earth. Well back on earth me, Corey and the rest of the members in Slipknot went home to my apartment for celebrate. We was sitting there and laughted at everything and talked about how much fun we should have together in our next life (just because this life is so fucked up). Then my very best friend Ville Valo (The singer from HIM) went into the room and asked if he could be with us. All the guys in Slipknot was laughing at him and I told them to shut the fuck up and let the guy be with us because he is a close friend to me. The guys from Slipknot was giggly but stoped laugh. I asked Ville if he wanted something to drink and he wanted a glas of wine.
After that me and Corey was talking about how much we loved each other (yes again, I have been in love with Corey for 4 years and 10 monthes) and how fun we should have in our next life. Then we started to talk about witch people I wanted to take with me in my next life like friends. Corey became so angry when I wanted to take my boy friends with me because he said I would cheat on him whit them. Then I said to Corey that "Ok, then I take Ville with me because he is my best friend and I will never cheat on him." Then I saw this thing in my head and Ville said to me that he wanted to talk with me. So we went into a gloset and there Ville sat in front of me and started to snap his fingers in front of my eyes under the same time he said over and over again:
"Terra! You need to wake up! You are sick! You need to wake up! Wake up! Terra! Please wake up! Corey have never done anything good for you! You are sick! I am sick! We are sick! The music I have made is for you! All this beautiful music is for you! It is I that have done music for you your whole life, not Corey! You need to wake up! You are sick! Wake up!
And then I woke up a bit from what have been a big fat psychosis for many monthes. I became so fucking scared and everything was so quiet. I went out from the closet with Ville and walked to Corey and said:
"Corey. You don't deserve me, I want Ville as my first boyfriend in my next life. You get me when you have prove you deserve me. To that day I will stay with Ville."
Corey got this sad "=I don't give a shit." look in his eyes and walked away and started to dig a hole in the dirt.
Corey is from 1 may 2011 out of my task and I will never believe in him again. Ville is the man I will spend my life living for only to know he exists. Because Corey he is a very disturbed man, he is the most psychic ill person you can find. Because Corey, Corey he was the last man out from that cage and he is now back at the sun with his soul where he belong.
That people, that is my love story and the ending of Corey Mother Fucking Taylor.
Nope
I'm gonna be a big fuck and tell you that I don't gonna write my big long fucking text today, instead I will take my 30mg Stesolid, 200mg Nozinan and 4ml Theralen and go to bed early. bye bye
(If someone cares I'm gonna write it tomorow, or maybe the day after that. And I promise you, it's so fucking cool!!)
(If someone cares I'm gonna write it tomorow, or maybe the day after that. And I promise you, it's so fucking cool!!)
Coming soon
The big long fucking text is coming up soon! Be patient, I'm a slow get up to do things writer. But maybe today! ;D
I'm cool with it
In Dalarna and feel like shit, not to complain.
Build big big houses on paper, my forth right now, this one looks like a bird or a butterfly. To build houses on paper is almost free, never gonna build the shit in real life, but it's kinda spooky shit you get up from all your thoughs. And he is with me. I have dumped Corey, or he dumped me, but now Ville is there all the time instead. Not one damn moment without someone wisper in my ear. But I guess it's fine :)
I'm gonna write a big, long fucking text at this blog when I get home, about everything thats happening last time, and I promise you, it's not a joke. Feel up to learn me jump into a world more real and realistic than ever. We have sucess!
Build big big houses on paper, my forth right now, this one looks like a bird or a butterfly. To build houses on paper is almost free, never gonna build the shit in real life, but it's kinda spooky shit you get up from all your thoughs. And he is with me. I have dumped Corey, or he dumped me, but now Ville is there all the time instead. Not one damn moment without someone wisper in my ear. But I guess it's fine :)
I'm gonna write a big, long fucking text at this blog when I get home, about everything thats happening last time, and I promise you, it's not a joke. Feel up to learn me jump into a world more real and realistic than ever. We have sucess!
I'm quiet
I have never felt this hard way before, never will I be proud of you or ever will I love you forever.
Far far away
Far far away from life, think I told you...
Book finished.
Book finish! 204 pages of total brutal madness. Check the bookstore after my death, maybe some days before. (I look up to be 64 years old, 43 years left of thirst.)
Home from mentalhospital, again...
I'm home from the mentalhospital again, they write me out today and pff, didn't need to stay there in four monthes! .D cool dude.
I realist something more today than freedom is cool, my hair is fucking flat again, almost. I looked at some old pictures and fuck, my hair was curly from the start after the curly permanent. I have thought that the curly didn't move at all but yes, it has. Welcome back flat hair with some influence with curl.
curly and flatcurly (picture will come when I move my ass to the camera)
I realist something more today than freedom is cool, my hair is fucking flat again, almost. I looked at some old pictures and fuck, my hair was curly from the start after the curly permanent. I have thought that the curly didn't move at all but yes, it has. Welcome back flat hair with some influence with curl.
curly and flatcurly (picture will come when I move my ass to the camera)New clue
From 44 bloggs down to 22. Fresh. I did a remover over my sites and discover the hell out of 0-9 in english and swedish. 22 bloggs remain. More to come, I guess... freaked up
