Elsa

Scientists says universe has exist in 14 billion of years but me on the other side suggest only earth has belong to universe in more than 14 billion of years. Earth is like I say older than 14 billion of years and universe has a age you only can guess around. Because you, or me, never, in this life, gonna understand how big and old universe are. Me on the other side believes in methods that only a brain can stop. Because if the planet we lives on is younger than universe, we never gonna understand the age of universe with our own methods. For us, from earth, on our own methods try to set the age of universe is for me rubbish. Instead I have taken the results of humans result of universe to connect with earth because I believe in that earth has the wrong plan over how long it have exist. In the start of nothing to today I will say earth has exist up to 18 billion of years. This is the second time earth has humanlife on it. So in fact human today is a living part of what that existed for almost 14 billion of years ago.

Human, before dinosaur and all this shit between. Let me fall this apart with some smart drawns:

- 18 billion of years ago: The start of earth begins, from a fallen star to begin there accumulate of dust and particles in outer space. The fallen star who once have been a life to create a core for what to be earth around.

- 17 billion of years ago: The earth is in love with herself and is a well dead created planet.

- 16 billion of years ago: The earth start to create life from the orbit of no souls. *

* Orbit of no souls = The dead of the living on our planet. Like flowers, trees, stones and very very small creatures in the dirt. And today also on our bodys, well know as chigger.

- 16,5 billion of years ago: The first living part with souls take place. The woodlouse. The woodlouse is a part of the orbit of souls.*

*Orbit of souls = When the orbit of no souls has passed all there living creatures through dead. After dead you have life. Like after dark you have light or after rain it comes sunshine. Read more about this in my book.

- 15 billion of years ago: Life is now a part to very many living creatures, there among what I call for the "The descent" Also a part of what they looked like I like to call them for exactly "the descent". Take a look at the movie if you want a closer look.

- 14 billion of years ago: From the descent to human. To make that fast:

- The millipede - relatives *

- The moth - relatives *

- The spider - relatives *

* Relatives = There own creatures from themselves.

And so on, I work on it. We will claim that the life started in the dirt and not in the water. Water is only a reflection of dirt.

From the fastest and most noncharming life to create what I call the descent. Nightliving creature, living in caves, blind, get forward on all four legs; hands and feet. A mouth full of teeth in three lines (most like a shark, not in the movie btw), Yes I have seen alot of horrormovies and not at all finnished. Very sharp teeth and nails, very rugged. To make it easier for you as a reader I will match a picture of a lady from the movie up right now:

We was kinda like them to how we was but very different from the movie anyway. We didn't have that muzzle like that one in the picture, our was more wold/dog likly. We didn't have any tale and our ears was not that sharp. They have done everything so sharp in the movie but alot of the things agree with the movie. Our mouth was much bigger and we was fast like hell. We was gregarious animals and hang along in parts of maybe 5000 animals in one flock.

Well over to how we been this cute was because when all take around the woodlouse didn't stop create life about the spider, it easly end up this way in 1 billion of years from the start of the woodlouse.

What that end up after the woodlice, the millipede, the moth, the spider I am still on hount for. Any suggestion? Write a comment then...

The human

And after that you can write down your own consultation of the evolution theory. Nothing is wrong, but everything can be your fault. I easily have a bunch of hell to stand in the middle of right now so I can't explaine everything right down and I agree with that I have alot of big fat black holes in my theory, but I know one thing and I know I'm in the middle of something.

Elsa was that kind of girl noone would miss if she killed herself, so she end up that way. In a more complicated stage. Elsa is the reason for why human exist today and why every little creature there between has been created. Elsa simpily knew she have to take her own life if she would have love the next time she end up like a human. And I can easily tell you why.

Elsa was created, exactly like me or anybody else, here on earth almost 14 billion of years ago by her mom and dad. Her mom died when she was birth and her dad started to hate her and drink alot. For Elsa killing his dear love on the birthday. So Elsa started to hang around her uncle pretty much because he was the only one who cared. Her mom's brother therefore. Elsa's dad never got the hands of her and he was her dad untill the night she died. But Elsas uncle (Also me knowing as the slaughterer) was more as a dad for Elsa underneath her all way life. But there was a few things missing in Elsas life, like in so many others. She had no love. No love for herself or anybody else. She also sat down on the sickness schizophrenia, most likly myself. But she discovered her love, she descovered her love among the woodlice. She discovered, exactly like myself, that she had been a woodlouse for so many years and when she turn to be a human on earth she had not invite her dear love as a woodlouse to her own planet (earth, terra*, btw) when she still was a woodlouse on her beloved love on the sun. (There are life on sun btw, came to that sometime later I think, it is a upcoming subject.)

So when she left the sun for life on her own planet she discovered that her real love in life still was on the sun as a woodlouse all because she could not invite him to her own planet as a living woodlouse. So she turn human, to understand everything and to make feelings, the thing she had run out of. To invite her dear love and kill herself to be a woodlouse again and easily wait the time out for him and her to be reborn here on earth as humans in there next lifes as humans on earth, some billion of years after.

So Elsa come up with this great idea to kill herself and end up at the sun as a woodlouse with her dear love again and spend some more of billion of years together with him and try to create life on other planets together with him, this time. For now.

So she started to think up an idea for how to kill herself to end up in the right place in the right time.

She conected all this information about life and death with that she had to take her own life on her birthday to make sure her orbit was in the correct line for her to be reborn at the same place where she died before she became a human.

Now Elsa became so happy and throw herself down on the floor with a big smile and say: "Write that". So I guess I will. "Elsa was already dead to her dad and her uncle was on the point to kill her himself to make sure she stoped her misery." Also "Elsa was very scared during all this "kill-herself-stuff" because she was just like me, so afraid that if she was wrong everything would be shit, but I guess she was right, this far. And for that I hope even me is right instead of in the midle of nowhere, but that do not mather, bacuase if I'm wrong, then I have a hell of a time, right? I guess me and Elsa is kinda likely on that point of life."

For Elsa there was no stop indeed... She talked about her dear love as a woodlouse all the time to her uncle and after some years he easily started to believe in some kind of part. Or what he believed in was that he saw how much Elsa believed in it and he wanted Elsa his best and her best was death, that had her uncle made clear. She had woodlice everywhere. She painted them, she had them on her, she had them in buckets, in terrariums, in boxes, in aquariums, in her jacket, in the bed. She completly loved them and her dad had make sure she was to drunk to notice it. Elsa easily said to his dad she had them where they should be (boxes, terrariums and more) but in real life she had them with her all the time. She even got the mentalhospital to make a OK about her having them in small boxes wonder the times she was very psychotic and had to be at a hospital. Without the woodlice Elsa easily end up in a more chaotic state than every before. So the hospital easily said to themselves that a woodlouse in Elsas rum was exactly this more disgusting than having them in some cellar somewhere. And if Elsa was kind, quiet, calm and nice with the woodlouse the doctors made the opinion that the woodlice easily was the best for her if they wanted her to be healthier again.

"Write that!" I will:

"She could not have the woodlice beside of her room so she staid in her room almost all the time."

When she in the end discovered that she would take her own life on her birthday it was year 2006 from human count way in there time. Elsa killed herself through hanging herself in her bedroom 31th July 2006 and maked sure her computer was on to "record" the messange for herself in a later life that if she was sitting there, right in front of her computer she had survived. And so she did and so for me to grab when I sat in front of my computer in 2010. And for me to leave the messange for myself untill the next time I am a human in exactly these times wonder a life. I "recorded" my messanger to a later me in that little house on my mom's summerhouse with the words: "Have not my uncle come and kill me now, then I have survived..."

But to calm myself down I have survived for real this time, I have succeed. I have my dear love on this planet this time, among others even cald Ville Valo and ofcorse the man I will send back to the sun after my ongoing life. The man who took my place when I killed myself as Elsa for him to believe he had took over my planet. For him to after that when I was gone make the world dumb through his all wishes to be someone he's not. May I present Mr Corey Taylor as this very man. The man who have lived on my planet try to make it the hardest for me when I arrive again and for him to alomst sucess. For him to almost kill me in this life, only based on hearing his every unconscious though. For me to later dispatch him back to the sun where he belongs together with all his souls he have tried to give a life on my planet for. For them only to make us dumb, for the creatures you can find as well knowing ailiens. But they all fear the same healthy right now, they are, like always, following the evolution because no side effect can be taken on earth. They all belong on the sun (Ville's planet) to burn like woodlice in a eternity. Take a look of Corey's chest tatto for a bigger view:

You can see the stamps over his whole body, the big try to kill me, the owner of this planet. And so it will be, so it will always be. The true always get back in the end, right? For Corey himself to make his all part the other way as mine. When he first arrived here on earth as a baby he fast make sure for himself that he could be me and to make sure his mind made a roadtrip backwards for him and everybody he turn to the planet after himself to forget who they realy are in the end. So here we stay, a big Corey Taylor, who don't know who he is, only with his whole body fulled up with notifications about who he has been. So sad. So Corey.

* Terra = Terra is the name on earth on latin. Terra also is my very well name. A thing that may have came up unconsious later days in a age of maybe 7 years. Today I am 21 years old and I have been cald Terra, like I say, almost my eternity life, from 7 years old. To make you all who is reading this a little calm down. I'm not a big retard who is calling this planet for beeing mine, because you can't own a planet, right? But if someone do cares, you can, and this one belongs to me. Just like the sun belongs to Ville. But for you all: "There are billion of planets out there and I will make sure you all can live on you very own planet one day."

For that I say goodbye today and come back with more Elsa-news in some couple of days, weeks or maybe months.

It's kinda hard to explaine because I have not write about it that much at the blog but I write about it to much in the book. About my earlier lifes, that I have been a woodlouse in all my earlier lifes and secured the univers of life. I went back now to explaine Elsa and I know I have named her before but only as the name on my laptop I guess. But Elsa is more than a name on a laptop.

Allan, you know, the guy who came up when Corey split in two, also named to my earlier computer was in the same time as Elsa, almost.

Allan came up in 2006 and Elsa came up early in 2007 when she walked in to my room when I was trying to sleep at my mom's house on a permission from the rehab home.

Elsa walked in and she was in my lenght, about 170 cm (67 inches) and she had long curly natural red hair and blue eyes. Kinda of a ginger, and she was very skinny. Not creepy skinny but less flesh than me if we say so. This was one of the times I realy feeld a hallucination and it was when Elsa fast walk to me when I was laying in my bed. When she was next to my bed she hunker down and poke me in my eye with her finger. And I realy feelt this like if it was someone very real person who was doing it. (Yes it hurt a bit). After that I became so fucking scared and Elsa leaved the room. After that I was hard of fear like a stone but after a while I started to talk to her and she was very hyperactive and talked alot, I don't remember what she said but I remember I started to be irritated on her and I remember that I get out the name Elsa from her.

So I had Elsa, Allan (Also the slaughterer, a very fat man who was so fat that all his brakes on the skin leaved place for the blood to almost get out from the skin, I don't know what he came from but I got a guess now and I will write it later if I remember. He don't have a name, I only call him "The slaughterer".)

After all this I was so fucking angry that a girl had went up in my world (She was maybe like me in age today, like 21 years old when she came up). I tried to make Elsa undone and make myself to belive that I maybe only had make a fantasy about her but it was impossible to make the thing that happend in my bedroom that night undone. So I just have tried to not talk and forget her in almost 5 years. But now we come to the pont, almost. One thing more first.

One time I was sitting here in my apartment (maybe a year ago) and I got this big fat deja vu or what the hell it was. It was not a deja vu but it is the nearest I can come. I sat here in front of my computer and I got this extreamly strong feeling about "I have survived!!" and this was a very strong feeling. I only knew that if I was sitting right where I was right then I had survived. I had played my life and cards trough life right and I had survived from suicide and all this because I went psychotic. It was the most strong feeling I have got in my whole life, can't explain it nearlier than that, just believe me on that...

Back to Elsa, so I was on my mom's summerhouse a month ago and I had hard to sleep, I have my own house up in the forest back of the bigger house where my mom sleeps. And when I lay there and had hard like hell to sleep I started to talk with the girl with antennas :

The girl with antennas also is me and I have never understand how I can talk to another me, but what the fuck I have done it anyway in a long while without realy understand how it works. But I had my old suggestion on that one to. But what the hell, when I have a hard time to sleep I sometimes talk with the antennagirl (other me).

And when we lay there in my bed talking she at some point said:

"You have had some earlier lifes..."

Me like "No hell, I have been a woodlouse for nearly 14 billion of years before this."

And then I looked at the door out from the inside in this little house and I looked out from the little square window in the door and I thought:
"If my uncle not have come and killed me right now the next time I am in the same time as now on this planet as a human, then I have survived."

And then it hit me! I was creating exactly the same thing that I had experience in front of my computer a year earlier but this time I was creating the stuff I had experiend before. And then it hit me: "I have done this before, I have been a human before!"

The girl with antennas: "Exactly"

And I just became so confused and started to ask the girl with antennas: "Who was I, was I you?"

She said: "You is me..."

And then this though just run into my head and the person I havent thinked about in years went up and I just said to the girl with the antennas:

"I was Elsa, wasn't I?"