Terrorinalive

Your earlier life

Today I was on a lecture about the brain. It was a researcher that research about the brain that was there and talk to us. We was many from school, maybe 300 persons.
We spend 1,5 hours to listening to him. He talked about everything that have to do whit the brain. Once he wanted us to shut ours eyes and do what he told us. He wanted us to count to ten in Swedish, after that he wanted us to count to ten in English. After that he wanted us turn on the water in the tap and do other thing in our brains, still whit our eyes closed. After that he said to us to opening our eyes and explain to us that is was our  internal voice that we had heard. What we hear from ourselves when we are thinking. I find everything he said interesting because almost everything he said I already know. I have learn it all by myself, inside my brain. He have wasted his time on this.

Whatever the eye-thing and hearing-what-you-are-thinking-thing was something great. It is what I call for my voices. I know it is different things to hearing voices and thinking. I don’t like to call what I hear in my head for voices. I call them teleporting voices. The thing is that I know the different of my voices and the voices other people talk about. I have heard them to, the voices that is placed behind your ears and sound like a really real person. The voices that sounds come from anywhere else than from your head. But my teleporting voices I hear all the time is a different thing. I hear them coming from other persons and not from myself. I remember how a used to think before this Corey thing happening to me. I heard my thoughts like everybody else. But one day someone started to control what my mind wanted to hear. I could not control it anymore, and I knew it was someone else that control my head. That speak in my head. It was not me and it was not just this thoughts anymore. It is so different from then, I whish hundreds times that it should be like before, but I cant get away from it.

So, what’s about my voices. What is real and what is false. I know everything is real in one way. I know everything I hear is right, because I hear them and I always get kind of the right information about that I has right. That was I’m hearing is right. I can hear information from every person I meat, but the information only is subconscious thoughts from the person I meat. I cant hear what a person is thinking right for the moment. I just hear it in a big hot-tempered way to explain things. Every person I meat want to explain things, even people I have not meat yet. Every person try but I only can let know them better if I find them interesting in the first time we meet. The most simple way I use to get information is from the things I see. Because if I will get my permission to all the voices in my head to explain everything it have to be to mutch. So I prefer to see whit my eyes. I see people when they walk, what they do, how they feel like, what they think about me, what they will do. I see them like peoples, but they are transparent but I can have a feeling about their colours. I can see everything lika monsters and other things. It’s like a figure. The most obvious thing to understand is how people feel or what they want to do in their lives. It’s hard to understand peoples earlier lives.

But I have success whit this earlier life thing once. It was when I started to talk whit corey. In the beginning. He said to me that he knew whole my life in his head, that I had told him subconscious. But he wanted me to discover things, and explain things about my life more clear. It was when I started to explain my life for him again I understood that slipknot has made music and songs about my life. When I realized that corey said it was correct and that I had understand well. That I was learning everything fast. I don’t want to get out the imformation about how exactly this slipknot music goes whit my life. It just so suitable. But one thing he was telling me was when I asked him about who that has write the lyrics to his songs, I mean maybe it’s not him that have wrote the lyrics. He answer that even if it not was him that write all the lyrics his brain has focus so much to get the others who write to write was he want them to write. So even if it was other that write, all the words came from coreys brain. So in the end corey has write everything to me. Really every part of my life stand in the lyrics in a complicated way, that I don’t think somebody else will understand, because it has not happening in their lives.

Whatever I explained things about myself for corey in maybe 2 months from that day I meet him. After that Corey started to explain things about his life. When me, my dad and my brother went out on a vacation in a caravan. We went trough half Sweden down to Denmark and all the time I was just lay in my bed in the caravan and listening to what corey have to say to me. He started to explain about his life. I didn’t knew anything about him then. I had just saw him on some photos and knew his name was corey taylor. It’s stupid of me to telling this because I know it’s all wrong. But I have never told anyone before. I do it fast, because I wont tell this in small words.

Corey tell me that his dad was a bad man, that hit him from then he was little. When Corey was 15 years old he left his father because he didn’t like him. And that his father had done very bad things to him. Like sexual things when he was little to. After that Corey lived whit his mother. But his mother was going under whit all kind of things. His mother begin to do things to Corey. Things that he didn’t like. When he was 18 years olf he didn’t want to live at home anymore. But he was left whit his mom anyway. He started to do music to calm himself from everything his mother was doing to him. And then all this whole life thing started. Blabla

When I relized that this not can have happening to corey. Allan started to take over. He started to explane that it was his life and not corey’s. But some months after that I realized that Allan is a part of corey and what allan says have a part of corey. So they keep going together.

2008-01-31

Remember all the times you call people for liars or mentally ill people. This have become a problem because: I can’t remember how I was thinking before this happening to me. I remember that I was stuck in my brain to get explaines for what we live in and how the world will lock like if, the possibility, an alien come to our planet. I have the fact of what we look like in front of other persons. The possibllity is that every person on this planet sees the world in a whole different way than yourself does. I mean every person calls a line for a line and a line lock like a line for me. But for you maybe a line lock like a circle, but both our brains has explain the form of a line like a line. Even if two persons see a line in different shapes it will always be called like a line.

And so we have the space. Everybody say the space is endless but what is endless in shore. I know now for shore how this works, but I can’t explain it better than this.
I mean our brains have the focus on this planet and to understand this planet we live on. So when someone starts to think about how big the space is, then it is impossible to understand how big the space is if we only say it is endless. But if you think in this way. The space is so endless that you have made it big. Your brain that is adapt, to this planet can’t accept how big an endless is. So if you think that an endless has the same space that you can understand. The space becomes so big so you can’t understand it. And if you give it a try you only get the answer “endless” But in shore endless is just a stop for your brain. So:
Your brain is adapted, for this planet so you can’t understand more than what you think is an endless. In the point there your thoughts about endless stops, there some one else on another planet takes up your thoughts of what an endless is. Than that possibility alive alien goes ahead whit the thoughts over how big the space is. And when this very alive alien stops to understand an endless stop, then another alive alien in the space take up the electronic signals and understands them. So the thing is that the space becomes endless because it is not just we in the space that think about the space and how big it is. We that are very alive in the space are the persons who accept that the space is an area without an ending.

So then, the question, where do we live in the space and what do we do to create a world, and how can we live at the same spot in our life.
I think like this. The space is big, very big. But our planet is big in itself. So for get our planet to stay in its system and right area. The possibility for our planet to take itself away from its direction is impossible because I think like this. To do a simple explain:
On one side of earth very long from where we can think and do resorts, there a big black hole exists. The big black hole has a gravity and suck things into it in the right direction. On the other side of earth very long away it’s a black hole that sucks in the left direction.
To explain what is happening it works like two magnets. If you take two magnets and try to push them together when they don’t match, you get a resultant that shows that it is impossible for you to get the two magnets together without help from yourself in form of pres the magnets against each other. It’s like you can’t get the two magnets to get together side by side because they have a direction to two different ways.
And it is kind of what I am try to tell you. This two big holes works like two different magnets that can’t get together side by side without side effects. So these two black holes create a very big electronic signal in the area of an electronic space. And somewhere in the middle of this two gigantic holes there we have our system there our planet is stuck. So it is impossible for our planet to fly away from its working place in the space. It is impossible for our planet to get out of its directions as long the two black wholes exist.

So here you have the answer where all the energy in our system exists. It is inside a very big space electronic direction. And what that can happen is that our energy gets out to other planets or in the other direction; electronic signals come trough us and our planet.
All our energi from our planet exist inside our electric space and the result is that we in a possible way can hear each other trough our minds and get things understood. Things we never thought we have the possibility to clear up are now possible.


2008-05-01 (30 april 2008-04-30)

Yesterday I got a dejavu and in the same time I understand a little bit what a dejavu is. It’s simple and it started when I went to bed and get a very big dejavu. And then I understand that a dejavu is a reaction from your brain when you or someone else send you messengers from the future to your working brain.
In a simple way you can send yourself messengers from the future. From a second there yourself want your own situation to be attracted attention by yourself. So, if we live in this world 2008. I have in my own mind showed myself in (2010) 2010 and I remember one situation in my live. And when I after that turn my own knowing situation I keep up the situation in 2008. And then you got a dejavu situation that youself has create in your own life.
I think, the point is that just the memory you have maybe don’t mean something special for you. But you need this kind of memory for your brain to find the correct life.
So, it’s for that you often not remember your own dejavus.
So in fact:
You live in 2010 and your brain have a very important memory that you maybe not understand as well.
You keep up the time and get right into the memory in 2008.
I mean if the human being never had invent the time this should work. Actually it’s like a very well working timemachine.
It’s absolutely clear for me that all people in the world can work whit this kind of theories. So it’s not even just your own memories or messengers sometime. Other people can make themselves understood in a situation like this. It was in a form like other people showing me a dejavu I get this idea.

2008-05-19